Monday evening - facing hard decisions

Dear ones,

This evening we are just not sure what to do next. Nan has continued to vomit all day and this time it is large amounts. She sips ice water and trys her hardest to keep things down. We have used Kitril, Zofram, Adavan and still she vomits. She appears to be doing pretty well on other fronts, heart rate is normal, blood pressure is normal, temp is normal but she feels terrible with the ongoing nausea. She is afraid to go into the hospital, not knowing how long she will have to stay, yet we are afraid not to do anything. It has been over a week of constant vomiting day and night, when I say constant I mean every couple hours and if she is lucky she can sleep all night before it hits again. The leg pain is much better and even the back pain has been less intense today, just the nausea.

We said good bye to Jan this morning. Nan got up and came down to her recliner before we left for the airport at 6 am, she slept there until Terry came to care for her at 8 am. Terry was still here when I got back from Oakland and Terry said that in general she is looking good but Terry is concerned about the vomiting and suggested Adavan IV. Now we wonder if the new antibiotic which we have three more days of is causing the nausea. It did not the last time we used it.

Nan has spent time up and down today and seems to be more comfortable in the recliner than in bed all day. Her hospital bed is supposedly on its way but no call to confirm that yet.

We are pretty low this evening. We just don't know what we should be doing to help her. We are not even sure that the Dr. will allow her back into the hospital with her general balanced vitals and such. Blood was drawn today so the reports may indicate something wrong, those results will be available tomorrow.

Jan called this evening to tell us that after being in a hold pattern for nearly an hour she landed in Denver. She was heading home, soaking in a tub and then sleeping. There are no words to express our gratitude for the time she spent with us. She was such a lift to Nan's spirits and helped her in so many different ways. She rubbed sore places for hours, played with Keanna over and over again, fed me, got movies, groceries and didn't get very lost this time. Jan brought us up to date on her world and her pleasure with Kara getting ready to graduate this week. Our lives were touched by her compassion and her love.

This is one of those evening when you just wish you could call someone with answers and get a good start on improving things, there is no one to call with the answers other than our Father in Heaven. Nan is very discouraged and badly needs lifting. Perhaps Syliva who is coming tomorrow can be of assistance. We sure look forward to her being here to help and I plan to get out and use the time to see some properties too which she is here. She has to go at 4 but I'll try to be back by then.

This evening Starr has a hard time settling down with Nan in the chair, she has been so good lately giving needed warmth to Nan's hip at night, sleeping with her quietly for hours during the day but tonight Starr is having a hard time settling down. She looks at you with her big brown eyes and you wonder how much of our unease she senses.

You may remember that recently I shared my anxiety over needing to renew my license but needing to take 28 hours of classes before I could apply. Well it turns out that all I have to have for this renewal is a 7 hour class called USPAP. I took it this afternoon online and passed so now its just find the hundreds of dollars to renew and ship out the forms. One item out of the way, IRS wants $4,400 by the 26th so that is another challenge. Sutter Delta called today seeking $15,000 for a hospital stay. I told the nice lady to double check, that our insurance and the hospital had an agreement to accept the insurance payment as payment in full and so she started to check and found that there are negoiations being conduced between Blue Cross and the hospital. I think that bill will go away soon.

Jan compiled all the medical bills we have onto a word document so I can see what I am facing at a quick glance, wow!

Nan and I really need your prayers of encouragement, healing and guidance. We just don't know what to do next to solve these issues of nausea.

Thank you loyal friends and family for your continued care and prayers.

We are looking forward to see Marilyn Titherington on June 3 and Dana and family arrives about June 5. Nan can hardly wait. Barbara and Gerry have let us know they can come down thursday evening and stay through sunday if Nan is feeling better and is not in the hospital. What would we ever do without friends and family, you all make life liveable for us.

For your love and pray support we thank you,

tim and nan

ps thank you Jan for everything!!!!!