Not a great day at all!

Dear Friends,
Nan would tell you this has not been a good day. Yes she has done the neccessary things, walked before breakfast, sat up in a straight chair for breakfast, at her Cream of Wheat and milk, some banana and a couple cans of Boost. Then back to bed for awhile. No signs of new infection in the cultures for the past 5 days which is good and a decision has been made to remove the port a cath which was placed in her chest several months ago. There is concern that a virus might be hiding in the tip of the cath. We were glad to see Dr. Morgan and in the course of conversation he mentioned that the ideal would be for Nan to remain in the area for 2 months of followup in case any other surgeries related to her surgery were needed. Nan was so saddened by that news, she just crumbled into tears. Poor Dr. Morgan who is the world's kindest man and so gentle hastened to let her know that they could refer her to a good surgeon at Stanford or UCSF for follow up and that he did not mean she had to stay here for 2 months. The crew came to install a new PICC line, sort of a permanent IV line with two access tubes that goes directly into the artery, this is to replace the port which is to be taken out tomorrow. Nan had hoped that they could put the PICC line in at the same time as the Port was coming out, that is while she was asleep so that really threw her for a loop. She is just so tired of being sick, of being weak, of being in the hospital, it is all getting to her.
When I arrived this morning she mentioned that she had spoken to Aunt Ann who is the worlds nicest aunt, a prayer warrior and close friend who lives in OK. Then she said she had also ask Sharon to come when she could. If Sharon can get away that would be a wonderful lift for Nan. Over the years Dana and Sharon have always been able to help her through her tough times and Dana has already served for weeks. Sharon is so busy and yet is somehow finding time to come visit Nan. We both really appreciate it.
While Nan sleeps this afternoon a much deserved rest I am out going to go over and inspect Whoville, I mean Youville, the rehab place that Nan is supposed to go to shortly. They put people with infections in rooms together but for $100 per day I can get a private room for her if one is available. Perhaps all those days of eating cheaply can mean we can afford a few days of rehab in a private room. We will see.
So I am riding the green line to Goverment Center and then transferring to the Red line which goes to Harvard Square which is near the Youville place. I just feel like I need to see it first and can then explain it to Nan. Some of the people who are pointing us to Youville have never even been there.
We really appreciate getting the cards that come every day, Nan grabs them and opens them, reads every word and then hands them to me. It reminds her that people care and have not forgotten her way back here in Boston. She is also reading her emails and emailcards now but so far has not written new messages out.
Well I am off, please remember Nan in your prayers that she can find more inner peace, muscle strength and relief from hurting hands, hurting tummy where the healing is taking place in the vacuum sponge, hurting back which no longer can have tylenol due to Gleevec and hurting neck.
The last time she walked today with the PT lady she went around the entire floor twice, that is about 500 feet so not bad at all. This was a a good clip and without any problems at all.
Sending our love, sure needs your prayers to make us strong.
love

tim and nan