Somewhat better, Mary visits, Sharon and Judy talk with Nan

Dear Family and Friends,
Tonight we are all tired. Nan has been slightly better today and has had no fevers at all. Terry came this morning and took blood cultures and urine samples and delivered them to the lab in Brentwood. I left for the field at about 11 and went to Oakland, then San Jose and then Campbell. Along the way the GPS found an Applebees for me somewhere and I got to have that special vege pizza with Gorgonzola cheese, spinach, diced tomatoes, white sauce. Dolly introduced me to it and now I'm hooked. Tasty but not to much, just right. I found an old lunch card that was punched out and so lunch was free. At 5 I left San Jose area to head home and I got home at 7:30, traffic was pretty bad along the way. Brought Taco Bell for Marilyn's dinner and found Mary here visiting. Nan was awake some and mostly asleep while Mary was here. She is less shaky today, slightly more lucid. Marilyn told me that Sharon had called and nan got to talk to her, that is always special for her and this morning our friend Judy from Tracy called and Nan happened to be awake so they got to talk some too.
At this point we are not sure if Nan will move to the bed to sleep tonight or stay in the chair. I think we should try the bed but its up to her I guess. I think moving around a little is good for the body and different pressure points come into play. Also the bed is way more comfortable than the chair, I know because I slept in the bed last night and it was great, really great. Tomorrow we have to get after the Nexavar people, we only have 1.5 days of drug left and we need more, yikes.
I've thought a lot about our situation today and especially about Nan and how she has chosen to live her life over the years. She has made this family her first priority making sure we had food, clothes, gifts, travel and her love. She and Nikki pick out the best cards for special occasions, always say just the right thing. I know Nan misses being Nan now as she has been so self contained and self driven, never really cared much what other people thought, did not live her life on others agenda, pretty amazing woman, hard to totally describe but pretty amazing. I hope you feel about your spouse like I feel about Nan, like the best person ever to get to be with over the years in good times and bad, wealth and poor, traveling or staying at home, walking the beaches in Hawaii many times or driving to appraisal appointments, choir meetings and programs. Nan is a great traveler, packs well, always looks good, is pleasant even in pressure times and is not selfish.
This morning I took some time to just tell her what I thought of her and she took it all in. She said it was beautiful. AT this point in time everything has to be very direct for Nan to understand it clearly, no jokes, no hints, just direct communication.
Last night at midnight right after I blogged I got hit with a rare low blood sugar moment. Once I realized what was taking place I raided the frig and had some wonderful banana nut bread Mary had brought, some cottage cheese and some orange juice and within a few minutes I felt better, good enough to head to bed and sleep well. It was surprising and unsettling. I am also considering stopping taking Avandia since several reports now suggest it has a strong relationship to heart issues.
Tonight we are grateful for the quick actions of the doctor and the home health group that got the antibiotics to us by 9 last night. I believe they are helping Nan feel better already.
Please keep Nan in your prayers and thoughts, if you have tried to call and not gotten her please try again, don't worry about her sleep, she can go back to sleep and will when you are done talking. Be patient and listen very carefully as she can hardly speak above a whisper these days.

So we send our love

tim and nan and marilyn